My intention today is to explore the inner landscape of my soul. The roar of the waves this stormy day is fitting background music. The sun is peeping out to encourage me. As I closed my eyes to meditate, a man appeared – not in my mind’s eye but on the bench opposite me – soon to be joined by his wife. They’re from Chicago and would normally be back up north by now but are grateful to be here dodging a rainstorm rather than the snow that blanketed Chicago last night. Strange goings-on everywhere. Signs of disruption.
I spoke with my Romanian friend this morning, who I’m meant to teach with in June. She reminded me there is a global reboot happening. She felt sure we were each stranded where we are, for a reason. Alone on the bench once more, I closed my eyes, breathed in the sea air and looked for my soul.
A character came to me named Delta. She’s the “soul” of the protagonist in my screenplay. I claimed her as my own and asked what she had to tell me. “You know very well”, she replied, “there is no way to push the river. Yet you like trying. It distracts you. Better to see how things ARE and choose how you tell the story. Remember, there are many “true” versions of what’s going on now. Shine your light. Shine your light,” she repeated, “on the version you want to see.”
“Is that all you want to tell me?” I asked. She smiled. “If I tell you more you won’t be able to remember. That’s enough for today.”
Before I left on this trip, I read some old journals. They were written 20 years ago when I first moved to Cusco to manifest the vision my shamanic teacher shared with me of a spiritual center in the Sacred Valley. Reading them, I was struck by how hard I tried to “push the river” to make things happen the way I thought they should. Paz y Luz got built almost by accident while I was busy trying to make something else happen.
In retrospect, I can clearly see how beautifully I was guided each step of the way. Delta is right. All that pushing just makes things harder. Letting go and saying “yes” when the moment presented itself, is what manifested the spiritual center in Pisac.
I’m not yet sure what I want this new global reset to look like but if I shine my light, as my soul requested, its shape just might become visible. Shine your light on the version you want to see.
April 18, 2020